---Psalm 25---

---Psalm 25---

To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul;
in you I trust, O my God.

Do not let me be put to shame,

nor let my enemies triumph over me.

No one whose hope is in you

will ever be put to shame,

but they will be put to shame

who are treacherous without excuse.

Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;
guide me in your truth and teach me,

for you are God my Savior,

and my hope is in you all day long.
Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love,

for they are from of old.
Remember not the sins of my youth

and my rebellious ways;

according to your love remember me,

for you are good, O LORD.

Good and upright is the LORD;

therefore he instructs sinners in his ways.
He guides the humble in what is right

and teaches them his way.
All the ways of the LORD are loving and faithful

for those who keep the demands of his covenant.
For the sake of your name, O LORD,

forgive my iniquity, though it is great.
Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD ?

He will instruct him in the way chosen for him.
He will spend his days in prosperity,

and his descendants will inherit the land.
The LORD confides in those who fear him;

he makes his covenant known to them.
My eyes are ever on the LORD,

for only he will release my feet from the snare.

Turn to me and be gracious to me,

for I am lonely and afflicted.
The troubles of my heart have multiplied;

free me from my anguish.
Look upon my affliction and my distress

and take away all my sins.
See how my enemies have increased

and how fiercely they hate me!
Guard my life and rescue me;

let me not be put to shame,

for I take refuge in you.
May integrity and uprightness protect me,

because my hope is in you.

Redeem Israel, O God,

from all their troubles!

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Is a big reminder for me...

Joyce, must always walking in His steps..

原来我是软弱的。

最近，陷入在很多的试探当中。
发现到，原来--晓薇，真的很软弱。

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这个星期里，上帝透过很多的事情，让我看见自己内心的软弱和不完美。
原来，当我以为自己的灵命很稳固的时候，想不到一个小小的试探，可以让我陷入谎言的陷阱里。要不是有真理扎根在我的心里，我想我早已踏上那无底深的陷阱里。

在面对，世上许多的谎言与真理的时候...
明知道那是谎言，却还是会有犹豫的一刻。
但，仍很感恩...上帝赐下圣灵，让我知道如何辨别谎言和真理。
所以啊...晓薇，做出上帝所喜悦的选择，其实并不难。
只要把眼目定睛在主耶稣基督的身上，就可以了。

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在大学，越来越多学生陷入在赚快钱的陷阱里。
看见许多人心的贪婪，丑陋的一面。
为求达到自己在金钱上的利益，可以选择做出一些违背自己原则的抉择。
朋友，我只想说：
时间并不是等于金钱。
对我而言，时间=生命。
或许，金钱可以满足许多物质上的享受...可是却永远也不能满足，人类内心无限的欲望。

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和他们通过电话，知道他们迦拿教会一些弟兄姐妹今早就会抵达那里，开始他们宣教历程。
看见他们那颗愿意完全的摆上自己，被主使用，可能还随时为主殉道...
就深深的感受到上帝无私的爱，和他们一颗对失丧灵魂负担的心...而感动...

当看到有些人愿意因上帝的爱，而甘心的献上自己所有的...
和一些为了追求名利金钱，而选择不顾一切的手段去取得自己所要得...
行成了非常强烈的对比。

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所以啊，晓薇...
不管在面对情感上的试探...
或者个人享乐放纵的试探...
都要常常保守自己的心，胜过保守一切...
因为一生的果效是由心发出的。

唯喜爱耶和华的律法，昼夜思想，这人变为有福！

（诗篇1：2）

要昼夜思想...

免得自己重蹈覆辙。

Sharing--Testimony--

I would like to share a real testimony from a sister came from Manila, Philippines. Her names is Aubrey M. Lee, 3rd year student study in Polytechnic University of Philippines. It's really touch my heart when first time I heard from her during Ministry Exposure in Manila. Pray that God will speak to you through her testimony...

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"Blaise Pascal once said that in our hearts, there is a God-shaped vacuum that only God Himself can fill."

With all the fun, friends, medals, admirations and praise, one would think that I lack nothing. I have a great family, who loves and supports me, I have many friends of whom I enjoyed company, I am a talented and intelligent girl who won academic contests, honors, medals, and recognitions, and our family is also fine when it comes to financial aspect.

I was born into a Catholic family. My grandmother, who was a devoted Catholic always brought me with her to the church. So I pretty much grew up in a religious environment. Every Sundays, Wednesdays and Fridays, I would hear of someone called Jesus. I knew He is the Son of God who came to the world to save us, I always hear that in church, but that didn’t matter to me then, I thought that my life is complete and that I’m too happy to bother, or that’s what I thought.

When I was in high school, I have finished reading the New Testament in the bible out of sheer curiosity because I heard that it can change lives, so I gave it a shot and have finished it only to find out that I cannot understand this book unlike the novels that I have read.

My classmates have seen me reading the bible, I was even attending church three times a week, and they also say that I’m kind, so they thought I was a godly person and I was enjoying the favor. But this is only a mask that I put on to win people’s acceptance. It was a good image to portray, I thought to myself. The people see me as a godly person, but deep inside, I resist the very idea of the existence of a God, and I resist the idea that I needed a God in my life.

I went to college, still having my skeptic kind of thinking, bearing with me my ambitions and goals, and the belief that I can do everything on my own because I have my abilities.

But I was wrong. Great clouds covered my life and strong winds have blown away my hope. Problems crowded my life. Problems in the family have defeated me. My father got hospitalized and was sick with renal failure. He had to undergo operations and dialysis which caused our finances to break down. Conflicts in the family arouse and I grew more of a stranger in my own family. And my studies was also affected that I came to a point in which I thought my only option was to stop studying because of the financial problems.

I grew more and more frustrated with my life, without a hope and without a future to look forward to. I felt like a blind person walking, seeing nothing but darkness across my path.

I was sick and tired of things that were going on in my life. In the end of the day, I would face the mirror and ask myself who I really am. And all I would see, looking back at me, is a big failure. I expected much from myself and I realized that even my own abilities can fail me. I felt like a man trapped in a box, jaded and left alone with my real self without finding a way out. And so that night of November 13, 2007, I planned my suicide. I was planning to commit it the night of November 14.

November 14 was a typical school day. I went through my usual school day routine. Our professor hasn’t arrived yet that day and we were waiting for him to arrive. Our new classmate was sharing a yellow booklet to the girl sitting beside me. They were reading through it. My close friend was listening to them. He approached our new classmate by the end of the class and we went together. And she shared to us the Four Spiritual Laws, the booklet that has opened my eyes and heart to the truth.

Indeed, I was never alone. In times when my life leads to nowhere, God has been watching me, waiting for me to see that everything can fail except for His everlasting love. And His grace and love is so amazing that it covers multitudes of sins.

God indeed loves me and has a wonderful plan for my life. And on that day salvation has come forth to my life as I lay down my crown as ruler of my life and gave it to the one who created me. The name I took for granted before has brought life to me, the name of Jesus. “For salvation is found in no-one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men to men by which we must be saved” (Acts 4:12)

In everyone’s heart, there’s a God-shaped vacuum that only God Himself can fill. All of us were once broken and only the one who has created us has the ability to fix the brokenness in us. And once you have been fixed, you’ll never be the same again.

I’m so thankful to God for saving me. He did not only save my soul but my life as well. “For great is your love towards me; you have delivered me from the depths of the grave.” (Psalm 96:13)

Now I have 8 consistent disciples, helping them grow in their relationship with the Lord. And I’m also sharing the gospel to students like me for just as God loves me, so does He love them. I’m glad I have chosen to follow this race for there is no task more fulfilling than to serve the Lord who loved me not because of, but in spite of. To God be all the glory, honor and praise.

“I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me, you can do nothing.” (John 15:5)

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Dear friends,

Don't ever think that your life is insignificant.

God has His hand on you from the very beginning.

"God loves you and has a wonderful plan for your life"

God created you intentionally, and he has a purpose for you too.

He loves you more than anyone else you will ever know.

It's impossible to understand just how good God really is.

Do you believe that?